I dont care about anything anymore

Life in the clouds

Clouds eclipse the sun as I step outside
Feelings of melancholy seep through
Each step an unbearable concentration
Of effort
Of loss
Of self preservation
Why should I try to save what’s already gone?
Mind and matter blend together
No greater, no worse
As ambivalent as the one having them
It’s easy to forget about the world when you can’t remember the sound
Waves crashing, planes passing
Mothers hate daughters for nothing
Daughters hate fathers for anything
There must be reasons but none can be found
Drugs and pain convolute my sorrows like the clouds over that effervescent sun.